You know how you feel when you are conflicted and then you get advice and then u feel unconflicted and then something inspires you or changes your mind and you are confused all over again.
Yeah... that's where I'm at again. I thought I was sure about not extending. But even with all my doubts and logic, I still want to extend.
Logically, financially, for all the reasonable possible reasons, all signs point to me going home... but the semester is half over and I have barely explored Seoul, much less South Korea, and Asia.
My heart wants to stay. The heart wants what it wants. But my brain tells me to go home.
But but... I think about it... and when will I ever have the chance to be an undergrad student at Yonsei again?
At the end of the day, which decision will I regret more? Going home or staying? Pah.....
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In other news, updates about my recent activities....
I went on a space tour company the other day/yesterday... not that interesting... after a short nap, I went to the Seoul International Fireworks Festival. Gorgeous, amazing, beautiful, inspiring, entertaining -- did i mention I love fireworks? It really brought back to life the fact that I am here on an adventure -- the importance of travel -- and the privilege I have here. It also reminded me of how packed Seoul is -- holy crap there was a shit ton of people (pardon the french...).
As I sat and watched the fireworks, it also made me think of my short trip to Canada 4-5 years ago when I attended the Vancouver International Fireworks Festival... memories of happier times one could say.
Pic of Joanna and I on the roof of the Space Company with a partial view of Seoul in the backdrop....
What did I do today? Ooohhh... fail day my friends. The majority of my day was spent on a bus, napping... we took a trip to Jeollanam-do which is one of the southern-est provinces of Korea. It was beautiful and all, but we were on a tight schedule that allowed for no exploration... we went to a pretty fail food festival but I did buy lots of snacks (yay me?!) and then we were supposed to go to a tea farm (which I was looking forward to) but on account of time and traffic, we ended up going to Gwangju instead and went to 김여자 concert... it was interesting (trot music and all) but we had to leave after an hour.....
Oh wells, at least I left Seoul?
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In other words.... my roommate is finally starting to believe that I am an 80-year-old woman on the inside.... I told her so...but she didn't believe me till I told her I enjoyed the trot music (which is a popular form of Korean music in the 80s I think... it's popular with the older 50s+ crowd) and when I said I liked the below fashion... she said it looks grandma-ish... X_X
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My current fav song?
리쌍 - Turned off the TV if you have the chance... check out the english translations... I almost choked on my spit... I totally wasn't expecting it.
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Here's a video to my visit to the Filipino Market in Hyewha...
Yeah... that's where I'm at again. I thought I was sure about not extending. But even with all my doubts and logic, I still want to extend.
Logically, financially, for all the reasonable possible reasons, all signs point to me going home... but the semester is half over and I have barely explored Seoul, much less South Korea, and Asia.
My heart wants to stay. The heart wants what it wants. But my brain tells me to go home.
But but... I think about it... and when will I ever have the chance to be an undergrad student at Yonsei again?
At the end of the day, which decision will I regret more? Going home or staying? Pah.....
___
In other news, updates about my recent activities....
I went on a space tour company the other day/yesterday... not that interesting... after a short nap, I went to the Seoul International Fireworks Festival. Gorgeous, amazing, beautiful, inspiring, entertaining -- did i mention I love fireworks? It really brought back to life the fact that I am here on an adventure -- the importance of travel -- and the privilege I have here. It also reminded me of how packed Seoul is -- holy crap there was a shit ton of people (pardon the french...).
As I sat and watched the fireworks, it also made me think of my short trip to Canada 4-5 years ago when I attended the Vancouver International Fireworks Festival... memories of happier times one could say.
Pic of Joanna and I on the roof of the Space Company with a partial view of Seoul in the backdrop....
What did I do today? Ooohhh... fail day my friends. The majority of my day was spent on a bus, napping... we took a trip to Jeollanam-do which is one of the southern-est provinces of Korea. It was beautiful and all, but we were on a tight schedule that allowed for no exploration... we went to a pretty fail food festival but I did buy lots of snacks (yay me?!) and then we were supposed to go to a tea farm (which I was looking forward to) but on account of time and traffic, we ended up going to Gwangju instead and went to 김여자 concert... it was interesting (trot music and all) but we had to leave after an hour.....
Oh wells, at least I left Seoul?
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In other words.... my roommate is finally starting to believe that I am an 80-year-old woman on the inside.... I told her so...but she didn't believe me till I told her I enjoyed the trot music (which is a popular form of Korean music in the 80s I think... it's popular with the older 50s+ crowd) and when I said I liked the below fashion... she said it looks grandma-ish... X_X
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My current fav song?
리쌍 - Turned off the TV if you have the chance... check out the english translations... I almost choked on my spit... I totally wasn't expecting it.
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Here's a video to my visit to the Filipino Market in Hyewha...
LOL YAY!! SO HAPPY THAT YOU POSTED PICTURES AND TALKED ABOUT YOUR ADVENTURES!! can you see how excited i am? also, don't worry about the skirt. i bought two skirts recently of that style. i really like that style! it ain't grandma-ish, its vintage!
ReplyDeleteoh, and you can always go back to Asia after you graduate! there are so many opportunities for you to explore ahead! you don't have to everything all at once! but ultimately, its your decision.
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